Wow. Up early????

I was up before 9 today, and it was my DAY OFF, I should have been sleeping in! Well yesterday I worked 1030 am to 830 pm. It was a pretty good day. Until I got home and found out that theres a huge chance me and Jamie are gonna end up by Milwaukee. My worst fear. Just a month ago on the news police officers were killed. Jamies my life, I don't want to lose him. But ending up there worries me. So if we do end up there, I've decided I will not make him stay for the 4 years so I can finish school, we will transfer ASAP. Even if I really like where we live, its for the safety of the one person in my life I can't live without. Today I think we're going to Princeton to see Jamies uncle, and then Justins tonight. Then tomorrow is my first Brewers Game!!! YAY! Anyways I'm starving...Cereal, fruity pebbles to be exact, it is! Have a great day!

Can I have a Life Back?

Again its been a while. All I've been doing is WORKING. Yesterday almost straight from 1030am-1015pm. Tomorrow its gonna be 1030-830 probably. I haven't even had time to do yoga, and my poor body knows it. I'm sore! My neck is kinked, my shoulders burn....BAH. But I guess I should be happy I'm getting hours. Starting the 17th I'm losing my main client. I usually get between 20-27 hours a week out of my 35 with her. And when she leaves I'll lose those hours. Lately I haven't been to any other clients. I go once to my other main person, and then a casual every now and then. Jamie did buy me one tree hill season 6, so I'm starting to watch the 5th season so I can get to the 6th. I miss my family and these weeks seem to be going SO SLOW! Can it be this weekend already? I'm excited to celebrate my first one year anniversary I've ever had, and I'm so glad its with Jamie. I also am going to my first Brewers game! Then I can't wait till September 11th. I'm finally going home! Celebrating my birthday with my parents, freinds, and especially my Sister! AHHH! Then the 12th is my cousin Tony's wedding. Anyways. I'm back to One Tree Hill, just thought I'd stop in and let you all know whats going on. Hopefully get some yoga in before my shift starts at 630! See ya all later!

Bah. I think I'm working too hard!

I've been working 2 shifts a day since last Wed. and only have one day this week that I'm not working 2 shifts. Last night I had to dust a laundry room (which needed it badly), and today a bedroom (again hadn't been done in forever)...and poor me has a sore throat and stuffy nose now :(...But on another note, I figured out what is causing my lovely insomnia. Of course its my meds. I always thought it was because of my accident, but I started my meds right before my accident, and then it got better in the time where I wasn't on anything for the last year....and now a month after being on my meds my Insomnia starts up again. Yay. Time for another dr. appointment. I also am really worried about whats happening with my job. My main client who I've been getting about 25 hours a week with won't be with the company much longer. I only get 5 hours with my other clients right now! So I hope work comes up with something good!

On a good note, I love yoga! And everytime I do it Jamie's cat lays in front of my paws crossed and watches the whole time. I'll try to get a picture when she does it again! I did yoga today but she was passed out on the comfty chair! I am really hoping Mom gets me some new yoga dvds for my birthday! (I know my birthday was last week but I havent seen my family yet!)...But my ring Jamie got me is missing a diamond :( So I now have to come up with some cash to manage to pay for that to get fixed and sized. Bah. Anyways. Hubbs is at the casino so I'm gonna eat something and go to bed....I hope anyways! Have a good one!

Thursday, Thursday.

Well Tuesday night I got my tattoo!!! And I LOVE IT! It hurt horribly but it's so worth it!

Other than that, I've just been working a lot. Last night me and Jamie watched The Hannah Montana movie, and today we watched Last House on the Left. Now we're just watching random tv. I guess we're leavin to hang with some of Jamie's friends now. So I'll Talk to ya all Later!!!

Car is Fixed. I'm Freezing. and I have an Appointment!

Well we took the cycle to drop off and pick up my car from Jamie's uncles. And well. It RAINED the way back to pick it up!!! Poor J had to drive back in the pouring rain while I had the car :(. So I'm still cold but my car no longer sounds like a cricket!! All well worth it. But when I got home I made my tattoo Appointment for tomorrow! I have officially decided what I fully want. I just have to have him draw it up. But like I said yesterday I want a cherry blossom branch on my foot. This will have five blooming blossoms. One for each of the important people in my life. Mom, Dad, Shelly, Jamie, Ashley, and Ciara. Then I want a few buds, resembling the new people who will come into our lives over time. And in the middle I want chinese for August for thats just a very good month for me! I'm so excited! 6PM tomorrow I get to do it! YAY! And my best guy friend Cody is for sure going with me now, and we're gonna even try gettin him a new tattoo too! Anyways me and Jamie are watching High School Musical 2. We are such geeks. But whatever! We are so in love!!! Anyways. Buh Bye...Have an AMAZING GREAT day!

Any Other day....I guess...

Today was just like any other day....Work....then Nap. Cleaned my car, and haven't had a chance to do my Yoga yet today. But I am excited about Tuesday! On Tuesday I'm getting my 3rd tattoo. My first tattoo is my rose on my hip. My middle name is rose, and roses are my favorite flower. My second tattoo has a very special meaning to me. I have a swallow on my ankle. Swallows always come back home. I felt that I had kinda lost my way and FINALLY came back home. I'm happier than ever and theres more, but I'm not ready to say it to the world. My 3rd tattoo is going to be a branch of cherry blossoms lining above my toes to my ankle, with the word August in chinese in the middle. Cherry blossoms are a symbol of love. And I met the love of my life in August, and we started dating in August. My birthday is also in August, and we were SUPPOSED to be getting married in August but things changed now its July 31st. My best guy friend Cody is gonna go with me to get the tattoo! I'm super excited but I'm having a hard time finding a picture of what I want. So hopefully I can get them to draw me up something super cool! Anyways. ABDC is gonna start soon! Best get crackin so I can watch it with Jamie while he cleans his gun! Everyone have an AMAZING day! I'm going to find some snacks before then!!!!

Well I'd say I'm slacking!

Boy its been a hectic little week here! Busy Busy Busy!
Tuesday:
It was a pretty boring Tuesday, I went to Appleton shopping and got some cute things. Then it was boring again until the whole drama events which I don't care to go into detail about happend. Lets just say It was quite the night.

Wed.:
We got up and headed to Gurnee, IL for 6 Flags. We spent most the day in the waterpark going on the slides, and the water was warm in some slides and FREEZING on others! And chicks kept checking my fiance out! Ugh, they sure decided to not try to make it unobvious! Bah! Anyways. We then had to wait in line FOREVER for every roller coaster! And we stayed for coasters after dark, which was 2 hours long, but we got STUCK on superman again! This time Miranda wasn't even there, and at least we hadn't started going! That put us back a long time, and so we only got to go on 2 coasters :(. We got home and boy was my face BURNT! I looked pretty funny. But everything was worth it.

Thurs:
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! I'm officially 20 years old! Jamie worked in the morning, then came home and we made some tuna helper for lunch. My birthday present he actually got last year for me for Christmas but decided to propose instead. So he saved it for my birthday. Its a 1/4 carat diamond ring! Its a double band with a flower in the middle and its BEAUTIFUL! I will try to get some pictures later. I was thinking though, if I would have gotten it for Christmas instead of getting a engagment ring, I probably would have thought it was one! Haha! After that was all done, we went to Silicas Scratch and Dent sale and ended up getting a none matching set of front loading washer and dryer! Oh well that they dont match and are a little banged up! We saved like $600 buying them that way! After that was done, we went to Little Ceasars, and Jamie has now decided we are going to open one when he gets his permanent position! Thats very exciting for us! Then we went golfing. It was my second time and I thought I was doing a LOT better, but I scored one worse than last time! :( Guess I better practice more!!! I didn't even get a cake or brownies for my birthday because it was too hot and we went golfing and didnt want to drive back into town to pick me up an ice cream cake, and we got home and there were no eggs for our brownies :(. Boo...I'll have to convince mom to get me one when I come home to celebrate my birthday! Grandma Liz sent me some money for my birthday and so did my cousin. I'll get the present from Mom and Dad and Shelly when I come home next.

Friday:
I worked. All Day. At two different clients houses. It was hot but overall Good Day. I got home, and got all cute and took my Fiance out on a hot date. We went to Culvers, then Target (where I bought a lot of bras all for about $3 a piece!, and my yoga gear)., and then to The Time Travelers Wife, which was an AWESOME movie! Then home to bed.

Saturday:
OK finally to today!!! Well I'm happy to announce that exactly One Year ago today, I met Jamie in person in a WalMart Parking lot, and then went mini golfing and to Applebees, and he even got me yellow roses for my birthday since that was 2 days before! And we've been basically together ever since. Our actual one year anniversary is coming up soon! August 31st! Anyways. I worked today, and its HOT and HUMID out! Not fun to drive the van with no windows that work or fan!!! Now I think I'm gonna go start Yoga. I want to get in shape but I hate running. So I thought I'd try something new!!! Hope it goes well!!! I'll try to stay more updated now that this week is over! I want to try working on the video for my MTMH forum as well!!! That will probably get almost done Tues when I actually have a day off that Jamie isn't home needing me to do stuff!!!

Been a Couple days!

Well its been a wonderful couple of days! Saturday night me and Jamie got all dressed in our 80's gear and went to a party. I won best dressed!!! It was quite funny watching Jamie and his high school friend Evan try to pimp me out all night. I had quite a few takers, it was pretty funny. My leg warmers didn't last very long, it got too warm.

I worked yesterday, and then got home and got dressed, and Jamie and his family and I went to G.I. Joe, which was an amazingly good movie!!! Channing Tatum is so HOT! Today we were just lazy, Jamie went to practice his golf drive for tomorrows big game, and I work 6:30-10:15, Yay, not.

But on another note, my sister Shelly texted me yesterday. She has her first boyfriend! I was thrilled for her! Except I don't really know this kid! I know his name is Jason and they met through 4-H, so I'm just hoping he's good to her! It makes me feel so old seeing her grow up like that! Anyways. I'm gonna watch Wife Swap, and maybe hopefully my Fiance will bring me home Pizza Hut!!!

The Lights are Off now...and I am Safe

Fear. We all have it. But what makes us fear things. Where does it come from??? What are your fears??
Mine. I'm scared of the dark, the quiet, being alone, spiders, and worst of all. I have a fear of losing my fiance. Fear is what makes you work that much harder at things. To overcome the fear, and to beat the odds. The other night, I went to bed before Jamie, and the lights...well they stayed off. And for once in my life, I didn't feel the sheer panic I usually do. I felt safe, and I felt very calm. Maybe its because for the first time in my life, I'm looking more into my faith than I have before. My girlfriend Kali started telling me differnt verses from the Bible. And I really sat and thought about them, and I think about them everyday. I may not always go to church (I actually would like to start again but its been hectic, I know thats no excuse but its hard)...but I still believe that God is out there, he's my savior, and he will always protect me when I need it. And when my time comes, well then I guess my time comes. That means he just has something bigger planned for me somewhere else. So I will not be afraid when he comes for me. And I will not let things scare me quite as badly. You can't erase all fear, but you can minimize it greatly.

Today I worked all day just about. And frankly I'm exhausted! I work all weekend, and tomorrow is the big 80's party for all those dudes who turn 21! And then I only work 630-1015 at one house on Monday, and then three days off! And I plan on taking advantage of it by sleeping in, and snuggling with my babe whose on vacation. Might I say that I am so completely and utterly in love with this Police Officer that even when he pisses me off, I can't stay mad at him! I love this boy more than anything else, hes the one person that can make me smile no matter what, he still gives me butterflies when he smiles, and hes truly an amazing person. I gave up, I bought a dog (who i love very much). I stopped going out, I started hanging out with my girlfriends more, and I even started working more. Never once thought that I'd meet a guy on Match.Com and end up meeting him in person. It will be one year on August 15th since I first met him. This guy completely turned my life around. He made me realize the things that were important in life. And for that I'm truly grateful for, and right now hes sleeping in the chair behind me. And all I want to do is just curl up next to him. So I think I might!

ARGH!!!!!! Seriously??

Jamie has off starting Friday up until the next Sunday. I was so excited that we'd have 4 days together! But I went into work yesterday and they have me on the schedule for BOTH weekends hes off! I was supposed to be off next weekend! I'm BEYOND Irate! They didn't even ask if that was ok? We aren't allowed to request our weeknds to work off anymore, and now they are scheduling us on weekends we have off??? I'm so overly upset about this. They called me to work today, but I didn't answer any of the 3 times. I hate this. Me and Jamie have hardly spent any time together lately and I was excited, And his birthday falls on a saturday during my weekend to work! Seeing as now I work 3 weekends in a row and wont have off really again until me and Jamie's one year anniversary! UGH. Come on people!! Come on State Patrol and give my Fiance a permanent job!! Get us out of here!!!
I just wanna scream! I don't want to lose my job by yelling at my bosses, but I dont think this is fair to us at all. Ok me. I'm the only person it happens to because I'm apparently the only person who can go to this one client. Her mom is having surgery and her mom is her everyother weekend person. So because of that I have to come in! They really should have asked me!!! They also need to train some more frickin people with her so everytime someone is sick I'm not the only person who can go! BAH!

Other than that I took Evanrude to the vet today for a check-up and shots. They said his ears were better than any cockers they've seen, His teeth were good (but very crooked lol), and his weight was PERFECT!!! YAY! I was so glad to hear that! I thought he was getting fat! But hes not, hes 30 pounds and hes a good weight for his size! Hes such a sweetie, I love that puppy to death! I just wish that Jamie would like him more, it makes me sad that he doens't like him.

Now I'm just waitin for Jamie to get home so we can go shopping for our 80s outfits for Justins 80s party on saturday! I dont' know what people wear to an 80s party??? But I guess I'll find something! Wish me Luck!

It hit me Today

It really hit me today while I was watching Army Wives. That I'm not one to have a job that requires sitting around. Yes photography is one of my favorite things in the world, but I need to save lives. I need to help people. I Love being a CNA, but I want to be in the ER, I want the rush you feel seeing someone and needing to save their life. I want to feel like I'm doing something in this world. I'm going back to school as soon as I can for Nursing. I was a pre-nursing student before, but my teacher for Anat and Phys really didn't know what he was talking about. Seeing as almost everyone in our class failed....including me. I am very proud of my fiance. But I hate sitting around while he gets to help people and I can't. It honestly drives me NUTS. So I'm going back. Just thought I'd let ya know!

Gotta Love the County Fairs...

Its been a BUSY weekend! Saturday morning we were to the Fair by 7:45am, and helping mom set up for the judging. Judging started at 8:45, and went until 4:30. Its always fun to watch my sisters stuff get judged! Since I'm too old to enter anything anymore, and my sister is a awesome artist! I love her stuff! At 4:30 me and mom walked around and got something to eat before we started our 5:00 shift at the beer tent. Then at 9:00 I ended my beer tent shift and started my ID checking/wristbands at the gate shift until 1:00am. So I put in a lot of hours.
Though I must Say. ID checking was quite fun! I wore my State Patrol hat that I got from Jamie. And all the cops were like "Where'd you get that one" and we just had a great time chillin with the cops all night. They were all a lot of fun to talk to! Sad. I know more of the county cops in buffalo county than I do in my home town! My parents went to school with a few of them so they were all braggin to them how their oldest is marrying a state officer! Made me feel good! The one I even asked for his ID (I had a handy dandy ID scanner it was fun lookin at everyones information!!!) and he pulled out his wallet and showed me a Clint Eastwood fake ID....I was like uhhhh lol...A bunch of really cute drunk guys were coming in (and some not so cute) and they'd be like "Guess my Age!" before I scanned the IDs and then I'd ask them to guess mine...It actually made my day when someone told me 22! I'm so used to being 14, 16, and 12. I got 22 and 20 so that was nice! But even though it was a lot of fun, I had 2 hoodies on and was still FROZEN solid! And I got home at 2 and crashed!!!

Today I took Evanrude to the fair at 10am. He was having so much fun! My little baby cousin Mya was there, and she fell in LOVE with my baby! She was sharing EVERYTHING with him. Blanket, toys, and even her sippy cup....and of course she fed him her mini doughnuts too! I'm suprised he hasn't puked yet today. Here's a picture of Mya feeding him! Poor Amy was just shaking her head, especially when Mya took a drink after Evanrude licked it....

By the end of the day at like 6, poor Evanrude just passed out in the car, and boy am I sunburned! I'm so sore and my feet hurt and I'm just ready to crash! I have a dentist appointment at 10 tomorrow. And at some point in time I have to make it back home to my wonderful amazing fiance. My back is really hurting tonight. Between sunburns and achy muscles I'm ready for my full body massage my wonderful fiance still owes me! Anyways I'm putting in Mama Mia! And then I'm probably just gonna pass out during it. But I can't sleep without the TV on so I might as well just keep it on! Goodnight All!